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[The realization hits him like a truck. Up until now, up until she says it, he had forgotten too. It's as if he feels the last barrier fall away, unlocking the rest of their time that they had together.

Being linked intrinsically, on a molecular level, he knows what she's thinking. And he senses the fear. But there's something in his gut telling him that she's speaking the truth.

He grasps her hands pulling them to his lips.]

Clara you're brilliant. You might be right. It could work.

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[ She closes her eyes at the feel of his lips on her skin, over the ring he gave her long ago. They'd gotten married in a haste and now, as it turns out, it was only the universe attempting to correct a mistake. ]

I don't want to go all the way to Gallifrey. I don't want The General or...anyone else there.

[ Clara wants to make the attempt at regenerating here, in their home. If she dies, it will be here. But it means she needs to die somehow, and her eyes meet his. ]

And you think I would? [The very thought is enough to make him roll his eyes. He wants to go home but not to them. Time hasn't made his opinion of them change.

His wide eyed gaze turns into a furrowed one, quickly realizing what she is too.]

We'll find a way to kick start your regeneration without going to Gallifrey. [His gaze flits immediately to out the bedroom door, the wheels in his mind already running a million miles a minute.] There has to be something in the books. Possibly something we overlooked.

[ Clara's quiet, biting at the inside of her cheek. Dying is the only way she's ever known, but maybe he's right, and she takes his hand, kissing his wrist. ]

We'll find something. Together, we'll find something.

[ It would be their fucking luck if he had to actually kill her, but she knows it's a possibility. Her mind is already wondering what the gentlest way would be because she doesn't...she couldn't ask him. She never would. ]

But later. We have time now. I want to look at you.

[ She's looking at him through a new lens, her husband, his 13th face, and she lightly ghosts her fingers over his skin. Her face is is different now too, with hints of the same features. ]

I knew I recognized those eyes. Always, your eyes were so...I dunno I just always saw you.

[He would have run right off to their books to pour over a way around their problem had she not stilled him. He had always been at his best when there was a problem to solve particularly a new problem that he had never encountered before. Add in this new motivation and he would have been off to the races.

Suddenly he can't help but feel both microscopic and seen under her gaze. It's like she were able to see into his very soul.

But he remembers her old face too, coming to mind clear as day. The same smart, intelligent features are still there but just taking on a new interpretation. Clara's face is no less stunning than it was the days they spent in Gallifrey so many millenia ago. He can't help but chuckle.]

Let me guess - less wrinkles, same stubborn gaze?

[ She laughs, the sound lighter than it was even in the TARDIS. It's nearly too much, the memories she has that weren't her life at all, and the life that was, the life that was theirs. ]

More stubborn, even. It's the eyebrows.

[ She feels free to touch now, her thumbs moving over said brows. ]

I told you it wasn't just your face, you idiot.

More stubborn? [He tries to act offended but there's no denying the twinkle in his eye. If anything he secretly takes pride in it.] The eyebrows are furious though aren't they? The accent is my personal favourite.

[He's like a cat leaning into her touch but just short of nuzzling her.] I get the feeling I'm never going to hear the end of it now am I? I shouldn't have said anything in the first place. It was your bewitching ways.

[ She laughs again, close enough that she has no qualms with letting the tip of her nose graze his before capturing his lips with her own. With their minds linked, he'll see everything floating through her mind. Sneaking her out of her parent's home one night so they could see a rare meteor shower pass over Gallifrey. The first time they kissed, standing outside in their scholarly robes and ignoring the fact that they were both supposed to be in class.

The first glances that carried more, the first kisses with heat, and then fingers gliding along her back, tangled with him. When she pulls away, she looks at him with so much tenderness. ]

Four and a half billion years, Doctor.

[ And now, his drive, his anger and rage, his willingness to destroy the very fabric of the universe itself - she was his wife. It all makes sense now, more than it ever did before. ]

Edited 2022-08-14 01:24 (UTC)

[It's odd watching these memories that feel almost like they're not his own. He doesn't know how long it's been since he revisited them or since he last thought about those stolen years. How could he have forgotten the night that they had stolen a ship and taken it almost past its limit just so they could collect stardust from a dying nebula to craft their wedding rings? Or making faces at one another from across a crowded room at a dry, hoity toity dinner that they were simply attending at the behest of their parents?

Thinking about it now, however they had lost each other had probably been too painful and that's when he had started to run - run away from the things that he had loved instead of facing them head on. Choosing to actively forget in order to not keel over from the grief?

He wants to stay there in that kiss for the rest of time. He wants to be overtaken by her very essence; if that was how he was to die it be heavenly. When he finally break from the kiss, he doesn't stop kissing her, instead moving to press softer ones to her forehead, her nose, her cheeks.]

Like we said. Lots to make up for.

[ Clara feels like she could melt into him, meld with him and never part. Her eyes are closed as he kisses her and she smiles. ]

You should talk Scottish to me. Roll your 'r's in my general direction.

[ She's teasing but is she? He'll have to find out. ]

[Thank god her eyes are closed because it's very obvious when he blushes.]

Clara - [But then stops realizing that her damn name has an 'r'.] Good to know that a sudden influx of memories didn't fry your quips too.

[ She got him and she knows it, laughing as she opens her eyes. ]

We have time now. Because we're going to find a way to make me regenerate.

[ Taking his hand in hers, she finally leads him back to the living room, looking over the books. ]

I want to keep this face. Unless...do you like it alright? I could go back. I was taller. Leggier. You liked my legs. [ She says that part with just a small frown. She isn't vain, but now she knows she's entirely different from who he fell in love with. ]

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[His cheeks are still flushed as he stubbornly huffs in reply. Despite that he allows him to be led back to the living room keeping one hand firmly in hers as his other skims the titles of the books in front of them. Multi-tasking has been a difficult task for him but he also prefers being single mindedly focused on something so that it has his full attention.

Clara's comment about his preferences causes him to raise an eyebrow.]

You know we don't get much of a choice with the appearance - but you're stubborn enough it might just work. And I like your body just fine. I didn't marry you for your body. Besides, [He gives her a cursory glance.] if you had different proportions it would look weird.

[In other words, she was perfect the way she was.]

[ It's her turn to huff, blowing her bangs up before taking a handful of books and returning to the couch. ]

I like being shorter than you, you have to bend down to really kiss me.

[ There are things she's avoiding talking about, thinking about. Because as soon as she remembers the worst things, she isn't sure she'll be able to get off of the ground. ]

I'm not even sure what we're looking for. And this body doesn't...didn't? Have two hearts.

More control-freak tendencies showing through I see? [He's teasing of course, and his eyes flick over to hers briefly before pulling a book down to leaf through it.]

I propose we start at a place that usually has some grain of truth - fairy tales. We can follow a thread from there.

[Cocking his head to the side he turns to look at her.] Could have been a evolutionary change. You spent so much time as a human that the second heart just poofed. Or maybe it's there and you just don't feel it.

How am I supposed to keep up with you, with only one heart?

[ She pouts a little, but she supposes it is what it is. Better alive with one than dead with none. ]

Then what if I spent so much time as a human I don't regenerate?

[ Her voice is quiet when she asks, swallowing her fear. ]

I'd say you've done quite well with one heart this entire time.

[Sensing her worry he turns his attention away from the book to her.]

If evolution has shown us anything is that anything can happen. And besides, you've got the Doctor as your husband. I'd say we're in a pretty good position to figure this out, don't you?

You're right. And I wasn't talking about all our running.

[ She gives him a sly look before curling up in the crook of his arm with her own book. As she looks through the book, she rests a hand on his thigh, only moving it to turn pages. ]

I missed this. You used to make a good hot cocoa, if I remember right.

[It takes him a bit to catch onto her actual meaning and he does a bit of a double take before clearing his throat and looking away, resolutely not looking at the hand she's placed on his thigh.]

Is that a not-so-subtle hint that you'd like hot cocoa?

[He's already snapped his own book shut not having found anything useful but hasn't yet moved away waiting for a verbal confirmation.]

Clara grins at him and nods. Yes please.

[ While he makes the cocoa she lays on the couch, holding the book up, hair hanging over the edge of the couch. She looks peaceful again, and she is. Content to hear her husband puttering in the kitchen. Now all she needs is a heartbeat, and they'll know nothing can pull them away from one another again.

They just have to find a way. ]

[There's something soothing about domestic actions that he doesn't realize he's missed - although to be fair this reincarnation of himself enjoyed eating and food preparation more than he'd thought it would. But this time there's a feeling of contentedness that he hadn't felt before. Every so often he glances out the dividing wall between the kitchen and the living room and spots Clara - his wife, he thinks - pouring over books. He suspects that the added layer has everything to do with her.

He knows that there's always room for things to go wrong, but there's also a part of him that feels in his bones that they'll figure this problem out together.

He returns with their mugs of hot cocoa and additional fixings that begins serving out to her.]

Find anything interesting yet?

Maybe. [ She thanks him for the mug, then glances back down at the book in her lap. ]

If we're looking at fairytales first, almost all of them have some sort of true love's kiss to end a sleeping curse, but that's the problem. I'm...awake, and anyway, we have to trick my body into thinking it needs to regenerate.

[ She glances at him because she knows there's really only one way to do that, but she keeps going because it's a last resort. ]

There's the Sisterhood of Karn but we can't trust them, Doctor. They'll take something from us, from you.

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[His brows furrow, reaching over to give her hand a squeeze.] They're a last resort. [He immediately seems to snap out of it though, tugging on the line that Clara had mentioned, eyes going wide as he starts to search for a particular book he suddenly has in mind.]

We could put you to sleep though! Plenty of ways to trick your body into thinking that you're dying, forcing the regeneration function to begin.

[ Clara's brow furrows but only as she thinks about his words. ]

Put me to sleep? [ Are they basically poisoning her? ]

What are you thinking, what do you remember? [ She watches as he looks for something, apprehension and excitement swelling in her chest like hope. ]

[Yeah they're basically poisoning her. It's not the choice he wants, but it's the lesser of all the evils they've come up with before.]

It would be the least invasive way. I can give you some pleasant dreams while it's happening to make the experience more comfortable - aha! [He's climbing up a ladder as he's speaking before triumphantly locating the book he had been looking for. Bringing it down to Clara, it's a gorgeous embossed book full of meticulously drawn sketches of plants and herbs.]

There's an herb native to this world, only grows under certain conditions. Deadly too if prepared wrong but if we find it we can dilute it so that we bring your body to a close enough state of death. [He finally finds the page he's looking for and it's a stunning plant - fern-like in appearance but with soft, shifting colours that meld into one another.] This could work.

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