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clara "why are you booing me i'm right" oswald ([personal profile] makemeasong) wrote2022-10-06 09:48 am

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[personal profile] growlies 2022-12-17 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
( Red remembers in the Labyrinth: how readily he threw himself in front of Vanessa and her, how much he wanted to be the one to take the damage, how much he wanted them to save themselves. Of course, they never did. They were all going to get out together. Her fingers grasp the collar still pressed underneath her sleeve. It's not surprising at all he would be angry about it.

Then Clara says she told him she loves him, and there's a brief moment of confusion on Red's face. She sees she seems almost embarrassed maybe, and she doesn't get why loving someone- oh.

Oh. That other kind of love.

Red's experience with relationships of any kind (friend, family, romantic) is nearly nonexistent. It wasn't until she came here that she started to make connections, make friends. No one in Purgatory High wanted to be friends with someone that was Hades' so intrinsically. She has a lot of knowledge about things, rattling around in her brain in a far away way, but no actual experience so she can't say she knows what it's like to even have feelings for someone else like that or what it's like to confess those feelings to that person. She imagines it must be really difficult, scary even: to put one's heart in the hands of another. )


...that's what was embarrassing?
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[personal profile] growlies 2022-12-18 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
( Red reaches over, rests a hand on her arm gently when she sees that she's emotional. It must have ultimately hurt, ultimately been hard to know and love someone and then run into a version of them that hasn't lived all the same things. She can hardly wrap her head around what that must be like so she squeezes her arm gently and then shakes her head. )

I can't imagine how fucked that whole situation must be.

I'm sure you told him cause you lost him before. When people die, they always regret the shit they didn't say or do when they were still alive. I'm sure it's the same for the people who remain living who have lost people.

( They have their own regrets about not doing or saying things before they lost that person like Red regrets not telling Fei, not being able to explain it all to her. )

Think you gotta be forgiving on yourself. This whole entire everything's fucked, and you're just trying to make the most of a shitty thing with what time you have and none of that's even guaranteed here.

( There's an ache to her expression but she means what she says. There's no fixing this, no making it better. Sometimes shitty things just exist as shitty as they are, but Red hears her, she does. )

It's okay. That you said it, all of it. It's okay.
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[personal profile] growlies 2022-12-19 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
( Grief is as unfamiliar to her as connections despite spending so much time among the dead, the dead who grieved their own lives, but she never had any friends down there, and so she didn't experience loss like that.

No one can die anyway if they're already dead.

She thinks it hurts either way. Whether she's his friend or his romantic partner when he loses her (and it turns out she loses him too even if she gets him back), it would be painful, it would be a loss, but it doesn't stop them from being friends. Despite the pain of it - all lifelong relationships have to end that way, don't they? Death or gone or- But people don't stop, reaching out, making connections. No matter how much they've lost. She thinks it's brave of humans, but maybe it's- it's what living's all about. Connecting.

What would she do to stay here: away from Hades, away from her fate, away from what she was made to be? Probably not enough. )


Why did he run away from you after he regenerated? ( She doesn't... get that part. Why he'd run away when he must have known Clara, cared about her especially after all they'd gone through together. ) But yeah, that would... all be really fucking confusing and messed up.

Hard to think of the right things to say in the best of circumstances, y'know? Sometimes you'll just blurt out whatever you feel especially when you're holding it in too long. ( She sips at her liquor again lifting her eyes to look over at Clara at that comment, and she smiles - a bit pained. ) I've been watching people for awhile.
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[personal profile] growlies 2022-12-20 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
...well, shit, a real charmer. You do not look like a short potato. ( Red rolls her eyes at that with a wrinkle of her nose at the very thought. ) You're beautiful. Potatoes are weird and lumpy shaped. How long has it been since he regenerated?

( Maybe it takes time. She really doesn't know what that's like, has never heard anything like regeneration in her own world. Spirits make deals with gods sometimes to try to come back to life, but they're basically the same except for the experience of having died. )

People blurt. It's a thing. ( And it's okay. )

Oh. Well, Hades gave this version- uh, me a name in Purgatory High. I'd be on the list to attend classes and shit, but... I wanted one of my own so I came up with Red cause I have red hair, and don't know any people named that.
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[personal profile] growlies 2022-12-24 12:25 am (UTC)(link)
( Red shakes her head in answer to the question. He'd never mentioned that before, and it's hard to wrap her head around - It's the Underworld. Its layout can change though Hades is the one that is in charge of changing it. This sounds like the Tardis itself will change it. )

...a T-Rex? Shit. That must have been shocking to suddenly be swallowed while you have no idea what's going on. Did you at least get to see it?

( That's a once in a lifetime chance to see a dinosaur after all. Red ducks her head with a tiny smile, blushing slightly. No one's ever said that to her before, and well, she's never really thought about it either, part of separating herself so much. )

Oh, uh. Thank you. ( She sips more from her cup resting her head back a bit against the bed behind her. ) Never really put much thought into dressing any certain way. Always had to wear a stupid hall monitor vest, and I didn't really make friends with the spirits so- ( lots of guarding and watching from the outside. ) But thanks.
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[personal profile] growlies 2022-12-26 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
( Red smiles a little at the sweet and genuine way that Clara puts it. That she likes this, likes having her around. She is still getting used to how kind people in their group can be like it's so easy to make friends, like it's so simple.

Maybe it is. Maybe the Underworld complicates things. Maybe it was complicated further by how different she was, but here they're a group of people who are very used to different or strange or odd. )


...yeah, girls' nights more often. They're good for the... heart or something. ( She lifts up her cup as if in toast. ) To doing this more often.